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Thursday, December 2, 2010

enjoying my Tara

(Tara-a few days old)
Who knew that such a tiny person could hold my whole heart in her hands? This journey of motherhood never ceases to amaze me, wrap me up in awe and open up my heart more and more each day. From the time she was born....Tara just snatched up my whole being; I couldn't believe that this beautiful little angel was my daughter! When I was pregnant, I had so many fears I obsessed over; they ranged from the irrational (what if I fell down the stairs while carrying her?) to the plausible (how would I know how to mother her)...I read countless books ...but all of these fears just melted away once I laid eyes on her. She was literally attached to me for the first 8 months...I carried her in my Moby  wrap and she slept with me. Either way...she was always with me. I had people tell me I was "spoiling" her and all sorts of other nonsense but my heart told me differently. How can you spoil a baby with love and touch and attention? Even now...I carry her as much as she wants...pretty soon, she is going to be all grown up; I just know it! Not to say that this journey is easy...I am constantly questioning my choices ...am I indulging her too much? do I have unrealistic expectations? am I setting boundaries? How do I raise a strong girl/woman?And just when I think I have a small part figured out...everything changes! But at the end of the day...I try to be kind, show her how much I adore her, cheer her on, teach her and have fun with her. I don't always succeed but I always try my best; very mindful of this little soul that has been entrusted to Tim and I. The best piece of advice I got was this..."just enjoy her!" This is my baby girl! I look forward to all our little steps and adventures together...Next...comes potty training! Yikes!!!
                                                       (happy girl Tara-a few days ago)

7 comments:

ArtPropelled said...

She's as bright as a button and very cute! I agree Soraya, just enjoy her and go with your gut feelings. Good luck with the potty training!

Kelly said...

She is beautiful, and you are a wonderful mother...that is evident.

Carola Bartz said...

Yes, this is great advice, just enjoy her! And don't worry about the potty training - when Tara is ready it will work. If it is forced on her, it won't. As a mother you always question your decisions etc. - parenting also means making mistakes, there's no way around it. And all those people who know better? Just ignore them. She is YOUR daughter, not theirs. The best and most precious gift in your life. This is how I feel about my daughter.

Briana said...

Oh, she is SO adorable! It is always good to trust your heart. It sounds like you are doing an excellent job of mothering her. So nice to see a little peek into your mothering world. Thanks for sharing.
-Briana

Blue moon mama said...

Love this post and the love that exudes from it.

As a very 'attached' parent who also cosleeps I was wondering what triggered moving Tara from your bed & how you handled it? We love having Nora sleep with us but with a new baby coming I'm contemplating having to move her to her crib (not a big move physically since it's beside our bed but a big move emotionally). I don't want her to feel that she's being replaced by the new baby but cosleeping with both a new baby & a toddler that thrashed about in her sleep doesn't sound very appealing.

jacqueline said...

Dearest soraya, so glad to have some time to pop in your lovely space today! Tara is just soo beautiful and sweet. Looking at her photos always made me smile! Have a lovely merry happy weekend and love to yoU!

Monica said...

she is adorable!