metamorphosis

 “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.  Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.  And the point is, to live everything.  Live the questions now.  Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer.”  ~ Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet
 These days...there is a lot that is "unsolved in my heart"...so I have been doing what I know works for me...practicing self care. I have withdrawn a bit...from the world and buried mySELF in a cocoon of family and kind and supportive people. I have been painting (loving these gorgeously colorful backgrounds!), reading, going for walks in the cooling fall air. I have been working out, reading, writing and trying not to go over the edge with this gov't shutdown (Twitter...you are my avenue to vent!!). I have been spending lots of time with Tim and Tara and practicing gratitude. And mindfulness (trying to, anyways!). I have been giving voice and shape to my anger...while still trying to practice (self) kindness and care. I am opening up to vulnerability even though it scares the blazes out of me. Caution: metamorphosis going on over here!

I am trying to regroup, replenish, restore.