making space

You know how sometimes you find yourself right in the middle of chaos and confusion?? Well...that's me right now. We have been unpacking all of our stuff (it's been sitting in boxes in our garage for all these months) and clearing things out. Isn't it amazing all the junk we can accumulate. So...my studio and living room etc is just a mess right now!!! But more than that...I am really just trying to figure out where the past 3+ years have gone???

We are getting rid of Tara's baby stuff and it has sent me into feeling sad and depressed and nostalgic. Is this how it all happens?? One moment they are babies and then I blink my eyes and she's gone off to college??? I know that each year she is going to need me less. And it makes me sad.  I was looking at her baby bathtub where she had her very first bath and I got all teary. Okay..actually I just broke down crying. I remember it all like it was yesterday. Seriously. And as much as I love watching Tara grow into this vibrant, joyful, sassy little girl...my heart aches for those baby days.

And Tim and I celebrated our wedding anniversary last night. More of "where did the time go?" but happiness at the life we have now. Yes...there are changes and rough spots...short tempers and little sleep. But there is so much more. So that's where we are...we are making space for the life we have right now.