My He(ART)-Full Life

Friday, July 27, 2012

making space

You know how sometimes you find yourself right in the middle of chaos and confusion?? Well...that's me right now. We have been unpacking all of our stuff (it's been sitting in boxes in our garage for all these months) and clearing things out. Isn't it amazing all the junk we can accumulate. studio and living room etc is just a mess right now!!! But more than that...I am really just trying to figure out where the past 3+ years have gone???
We are getting rid of Tara's baby stuff and it has sent me into feeling sad and depressed and nostalgic. Is this how it all happens?? One moment they are babies and then I blink my eyes and she's gone off to college??? I know that each year she is going to need me less. And it makes me sad.  I was looking at her baby bathtub where she had her very first bath and I got all teary. Okay..actually I just broke down crying. I remember it all like it was yesterday. Seriously. And as much as I love watching Tara grow into this vibrant, joyful, sassy little heart aches for those baby days.

And Tim and I celebrated our wedding anniversary last night. More of "where did the time go?" but happiness at the life we have now. Yes...there are changes and rough spots...short tempers and little sleep. But there is so much more. So that's where we are...we are making space for the life we have right now.


SooZeQue said...

They do grow up so fast... you turn around and their 30 with babies of their own. Congrats on your anniversary. Get the boxes unpacked already woman!

Jen @Sadie Inspired said...

Ohhh, the time DOES go by so fast. My daughter just had her 4th dance recital and the following day we got out the video from her first. I just about burst into tears! She was soooo tiny. Why does it go so fast? It teaches us to cherish every moment I suppose. :) Happy, Happy Anniversary too! I hope you had a sweet celebration with your Hubby. Have a beautiful weekend Soraya!

scrapwordsmom said...

It is TRUE! My baby turns 18 in a few months:( I can't believe it!!!!!

ArtPropelled said...

Congratulations on your anniversary! Though Tara is growing up she will always need you and when she has her own children she will need you even more.