-Audre Lorde (Poetry is Not a Luxury)
I brought along a few books to read on the road, one of which is a collection of essays by Audre Lorde. I am falling in love...word by word...with her words + heart + intellect all over again. Her work brings me to mySELF. To what is right + whole + empowering.
(billboard seen In San Fran)
Ever since I gave birth and became a mom...I have had to give so much of mySELF to Tara, mothering + my family. Even little things (like reading or going out for coffee by myself) were simply not possible. I used to love dressing up in prints + colors and being so girlie...but these last few years...it's been easier to just let so many parts of mySELF go. It's just the way it is and I have no regrets at all. But now that Tara is growing up + gaining some independence...I am (little by little) claiming parts of mySELF. It feels so good...this rediscovery and excavation. This renewal + transformation.
I feel happier + stronger than I ever have. More comfortable in my own skin...more confident and tender towards all of my pieces (broken + whole). Maybe this is a gift of getting older? Maybe this is a gift of breaking open to vulnerability and truth. Maybe...this is just a gift. No striving for anything...no attempting "perfect"...just being. And this road trip has been a catalyst; taking me out of my routine + comfort zone. More soon!!