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Thursday, January 26, 2012

3 years into motherhood

Tara turns 3 in a few days and besides feeling happy + proud + sad (all at once) that she is growing up so fast...I am also reflecting on how motherhood has been the journey of my life!! Maybe it's because I turned 40 and gave birth all in the same month (!!) but...giving birth was actually the process of me birthing mySELF. It has been a transformative, soul shattering, heart opening journey; a crash course in vulnerability. It changed everything. Period. Is it always bliss? Heck no!!! Being a good parent is the most difficult thing in the world...kind of like trying to run a marathon... in the dark!!! There are no manuals and it all happens largely in isolation. But...it is the most important aspect of my life...to raise my daughter as best I can. And here she is...very sassy + self assured, smart and silly all at once, part princess + part tomgirl. Every day is an adventure and she inspires me  to be kinder, tougher,  more resilient + more vulnerable while also reminding me that I am loved exactly as I am. She is a gift...unequaled.

8 comments:

Kelly said...

So beautiful! She's really going to cherish these words someday. That's a fantastic picture of the two of you.

PatH said...

What a beautiful photo! Tara looks so grown up. And yes, I agree that motherhood is quite a challenge. It presents us with many opportunities for growth.

Jen @Sadie Inspired said...

Oh, this is so sweet Soraya. What a beautiful gift Tara is to you. :) I adore this picture too. It is gorgeous!!

jane said...

Thank you for expressing the truth of motherhood! Gorgeous photo. Happy Girls! xo

Meegan, Blue Moon Mama said...

Lovely photo & beautiful post! I understand exactly how you're feeling. Motherhood has changed EVERYTHING for me in the most amazing way. Like you I have a January girl & just celebrated my second year as a mommy. It's just been a whirlwind of change & growth, particularly since I've added a second bundle of joy to my life. Dealing with new motherhood plus a second pregnancy/birth/new baby has been a joy but also a huge struggle as I try to find mySELF in this new life path. I feel like 2012 is my year of Rebirth. A time to breathe and explore and rediscover myself. I hope I do as beautifully as you have dine. You are my inspiration!!!

ArtPropelled said...

Such a sweet post Soraya and a beautiful photo of you both. Wishing Tara a wonderful 3rd birthday!

SooZeQue said...

Ok so it's been said 6 times already... so one more. Awesome Photo! Should be on a canvas. A treasure for sure. Happy Bday little Tara!!

Lis said...

Oh and that little pixie will continue to expand your heart muscle, I'm sure! I look at my girl - she's a GIRL and not my baby anymore! I do love how these girls inspire us to want to be our very best creative selves ... such an honor and a thrill.

I was catching up on your blog today ... I actually was feeling so depressed as I read another story in the paper about an Afghan woman being killed for giving birth to another girl. Sigh. I just don't know what to do with my rage and my sense of hopelessness. I know you understand and I know you will tell me we must not give up ... that the daughters need our angry to provoke action and change.

I am sorry to have brought this up on such a happy post! But maybe our girls are so precious to us because we know what could have been ...

much love to you all!

xo Lis