"As you go the way of life,
you will see a great chasm.
Jump!
It's not as wide as you think"
- Native American as told by Joseph Campbell
This time has been such an emotionally difficult time for me...as I am sure you can tell from my last few posts! I have spent a lot of time thinking about the why of it all. Why is this so difficult? And this is what I realize...it's not about leaving Va or the house or the upheaval...but it has been about this...
It's about the passage of time, change and shedding off the old life. It's about saying goodbye to parts of my life and mySELF that I would have to do even if we stayed here for the rest of our lives. It's about Tara growing up and how it infinitely saddens me and fills me up with joy all at the same time...It's about fear of the unknown and trying to cling to illusion. I have looked deep within mySELF and feel free to let go now. My heart is open and clear and I am ready to step into this part of my journey. We-all of us-hold the key to knowing...if only we trust ourselves to go deep into those dark and messy parts of ourselves. If we allow ourSELVES to be vulnerable, imperfect, honest. If we are able to hold all of our pieces with infinite love and grace and acceptance ...and to step into ourSELVES...whole.
5 comments:
Wow!
You are singing Strong !!!
I think what you're describing here is what we call change. That is always scary since we don't really know what lies ahead of us, but at the same time it offers so many opportunities (which can be scary as well) - it's good that you're so open. I'm positive that it will be good for you. - It's bittersweet to see our kids growing up. There are so many goodbyes while they get older, at the same time there is always something new and wonderful emerging.
It's difficult while we are trying to get our minds around the changes we know are inevitable but once we accept the change everything seems to click into place and we move forward with relative ease.It's the initial accepting that is overwhelming.... like a butterfly trying to break through the walls of a cocoon. Once through the butterfly is liberated.
she's beautiful, as are your words!
How did you know sweet, Soraya that I am going through this, too. I am watching as my kids need me less and less. As they grow I am changing. I am trying to find me.
I have been sad today. This is the first Halloween without my kids trick or treating. It makes me sad.:(
Thank you for sharing your heart. You mean so much to me.
Leslie
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