"As you go the way of life,
you will see a great chasm.
Jump!
It's not as wide as you think"
- Native American as told by Joseph Campbell
This time has been such an emotionally difficult time for me...as I am sure you can tell from my last few posts! I have spent a lot of time thinking about the why of it all. Why is this so difficult? And this is what I realize...it's not about leaving Va or the house or the upheaval...but it has been about this...
It's about the passage of time, change and shedding off the old life. It's about saying goodbye to parts of my life and mySELF that I would have to do even if we stayed here for the rest of our lives. It's about Tara growing up and how it infinitely saddens me and fills me up with joy all at the same time...It's about fear of the unknown and trying to cling to illusion. I have looked deep within mySELF and feel free to let go now. My heart is open and clear and I am ready to step into this part of my journey. We-all of us-hold the key to knowing...if only we trust ourselves to go deep into those dark and messy parts of ourselves. If we allow ourSELVES to be vulnerable, imperfect, honest. If we are able to hold all of our pieces with infinite love and grace and acceptance ...and to step into ourSELVES...whole.