Lately I've been feeling out of sorts and...full of regrets and jealousies. reading other blogs and magazines and...I have been wishing that I am other than where I am. Why do we do that to ourselves?? The truth is...I had been wishing that I had perfect little vignettes in my home that I see on other blogs (I don't!!). I wish that my art was on the cover of a magazine (it isn't!). I wish I had an exhibition right now ...solo or group:). I wish I could sew all these fab Amy Butler patterns. On and on. And then...because I'm kinda' kooky this way...I start to go all the way back to...I wish I had taken some art classes in University, a photography class...something!! Even though my higher self + deeper wisdom knows better. So...dear Universe:
(a message this morning from Re-Connect with Wilo + Mati Rose)
I am going to meet mySELF where I am. I am going to honor every single step and piece of my journey without judgement. I am going to throw away my ungratefulness. have equanimity. know deep in my heart + soul that everything has value. continue to show up through the difficult. through the painful. through the inadequacies. practice kindness. especially on myself. and my loved ones. and perfect strangers. realise that there is no wrong turn. there is no winning + losing. there is only the journey. my journey.
Dear Universe: I surrender to the moment. I accept what is. I am opening to grace.