My He(ART)-Full Life

Thursday, August 30, 2012

this is what's true

"We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us."
                                                                                       -Joseph Campbell
This week has been full of letting go for me and there is a deep and abiding sadness. It's one thing to talk about letting go and having every intention to do so...but (as we all know) it's a completely different thing to actually do it. The seriously difficult work of coming to terms with our life as it is...can break us open.
Layered in with all of this pain and sadness though...There is a sense of relief, an opening of my heart to create a space for whatever lies ahead. A tenderness and a lighting up of my spirit.
I firmly believe that when we hold onto things that are causing us pain in some way (ideas, expectations, desires, toxic thought patterns, friendships etc) ...we are stopping the positive flow of energy into our lives. All the wonderful experiences, gifts, people, relationships that are meant to manifest but aren't able to because we are holding on.
And my holding on is caused by fear. So many fears.
*the fear of getting old.
*of being alone.
*of dying alone.
*of caring for mySELF.
*of not being enough.
*of burying dreams I had for my life.
But...I am trying (difficult as it is) to leap across the abyss of my fears...into
That is my deepest wish for mySELF right now and...for you too...dear reader. xxx


Jenny said...

Such a beautiful and heartfelt post Soraya... I love the Joseph Campbell quote... and your gorgeous artwork... stunning!!

Jenny x

Anonymous said...

i've had a week of expressing (writing AND letting out) fear and sadness from the past, and have had new passion for making, for life and trust in myself and the flow of my life rush in, in a way that surprises me, even after 20 years of recovery work...let go of the old and tired and breathe in, open your eyes, and the new butterfly will unfurl her patiently and protect her as she dries her wings in a sunny sheltered spot and then flies to the most beautifully scented flower in the garden... your heart will guide you well
dee @ birds sing artblog

SooZeQue said...

We all share the same fears - so perhaps in that why we are not alone. I hope. Finally back from SF - tired and need to catch up. Love the painting... the green in the bird... luv it.

laurie said...

i love that quote by j. campbell and it is true every single day. years ago i read a book called necessary losses by judith voist (if i remember correctly) that really helped me realize that every step forward requires saying good-bye to something/someone. remember, we are never alone on the soul level.

Jen @Sadie Inspired said...

I am trying to jump across my fears too! So many times that sneaky fear comes along and robs us of so much joy. So much. Thank you for another beautiful, heartfelt post. xoxo

jane said...

wise words....xo jane