(on my easel right now)
A long time ago I read an interview with Oprah where she said that she had to actually give herself permission to change. She had to consciously sit herself down and actually give herself permission (!!!) to evolve + redefine herself. Oprah also said that it was one of the most powerful, life changing things she ever did. I didn't quite get it at the time but now I think I more fully understand it. She spoke of how we allow our past and the people who were/are in our lives to define us and then it's we ourSELVES who don't allow growth. Of course a lot of times others don't feel comfortable with these changes and keep on trying to put us in those same cubbyholes because that's how they relate to us. So...a lot of times we stay stuck in those boxes because we fear being alone. but those who truly love us will support + encourage or growth...don't we deep down know??
I also cleaned up my studio table, rearranged my paints and brushes and put this gorgeous silk yellow + read sari on my chair. i needed some red/yellow (Shakti) energy and now when I sit down to paint...I already feel powerful + different!!! It's amazing what energy color carries. I also picked up some fantastically gorgeous Amy Butler fabric that I am going to turn into cushions, a skirt, cover my studio table with ...just want to have it all around me.