striving for balance

 

I am always striving for balance...like so many of us.  I read up on how other women (with far busier schedules than mine!) do it. I try out different things but...boy! sometimes it just gets all scrambled up. See...here's the thing...my being is equal parts Eastern philosophy (no time but the present, time doesn't really exist, things will happen when they do...) and the other part is over scheduling, to-do lists, 7 Habits...that sort of thing. I go from work, work, work, do, do, do to...burnout where I am forced to slooooow down and focus on the present. Is it just me, or do you all face that too? So I find that I am always striving for some sort of balance. Maybe part of the problem is I need to stop striving so much? I have started  a regular (okay...a semi-regular!!) meditation practice. Just being in the moment...present...without fear, inadequacy, judgement. A place where I can think anything without attachment...and just watch my thoughts.  I don't know how it's working out so far...I mean...10 mins. of meditation to slow me down and then a cup of coffee to get me going!! See what I mean?

overwhelm!!

"Invent your world. Surround yourself with people, color, sounds, and work that nourish you."
                                                                                                                             -SARK
These past few weeks have been...intense and I am on the verge of burnout and overwhelm! Keeping up with Tara all day (morning walks + daily park visits + classes + all the shenanigans of the terrible twos...) and then putting my studio together, blogging, painting, dealing with personal struggles and loss...I am exhausted! I wish I could just lollygag all day, watch nothing but Oprah and eat bonbons:) But until then...I am just trying to take it easy over here...lots of self care (hot bubble baths, tea and writing in my journal). At least for a few days! I have emails to get to, blogs to visit...so many projects to do. I will get to it...I promise.