resisting change

This past week I have been so frustrated with my art!!! I have been struggling with moving in a new direction and (for some strange reason) I have a compulsion to paint the same lady all the time!!! Does she have something to tell me?? Am I simply afraid to evolve artistically?? Am I stuck??? If someone knows what this all means...please tell me!!!  It seems like I take one step forward and then 5 steps back!
I think I feel comfortable painting the same way because its what I know. I trust that there is a path ahead but...I don't trust that I know the way. Anyhoo...
I decided to take a break from painting and get out into the world to be inspired, play and get some perspective. I came across this wonderful art exhibition called the Art Of the Dream. I loved how nothing made sense (or had to) and different visual perspectives were all presented simultaneously. It took my breath away and opened me up all at once. I especially love the painting with the woman holding the bowl with 3 white birds (upper right). Love all the circular motion.

I also managed to get some alone time with my journal, a book and a cup of tea. Writing unlocks so many mysteries + questions, don't you think? It's cathartic and replenishing all at once. Plus...I think that shortbread makes everything better; it's just one of those simple facts of life:)

And...puttered around in my garden...I planted a gazillion wildflower seeds a few months ago and it's so amazing to watch them grow and change every single day. Now...why can't I follow suite instead of digging in my heels and resisting change every step of the way??? Nature is such a brilliant teacher. Just wish I were a better student. sigh. xxx