I have been having a difficult time these past few days...there is a lot of conflict within me that have been weighing on my heart in a heavy, heavy way... Tim is leaving for Ca on Wednesday and Tara and I are staying here (in Va) for a while...our house has not sold yet so it makes sense that we stay here. It breaks my heart that our little family will be separated (we are all we have) and ...even if it's for a short time...I absolutely hate it! So all the conflicts start entering my spirit...about whether it's fair that I should be pursuing my art at this time. Kelly Rae's class starts tomorrow and I am so excited...yet I think...can I "keep up" with all of this? Do the things around the house that Tim normally does, continue with my painting, take a class and, first and foremost, take care of Tara with all the love and attention she needs and deserves and on and on... so the guilt and anxiety and fears start taking over. I know that so many of us feel this way-so much of conflict and being pulled in so many directions...I have looked deep in my heart and...I just have to trust in this journey...trust that I will find a way to make it all work and trust that there is something to learn from every single doubt and fear and conflict and ...all of these gremlins have something valuable to teach. I have to believe that I am on the right path; the journey I am meant to be on. I have to believe in mySELF, the process and the Universe even though I am full of fear and uncertainty and conflict. I have to believe that I am doing the best I can and that it's good enough. I have to believe that this journey can include heart and home and self in a way that is good and right and whole.